Sunday, March 26, 2006
saw mr or ms anonymous`s tag and got reminded jx again. who is jx??? i tried to delete the name in my memory but looks like it`s a mission impossible. i went to re-read his past blogging entries. he said he wanted to take care of me forever and that "dear will always be my dear, girl will always be my girl". why does`nt this stand anymore?? i admit i`m too rash. i should`nt return IT to him. i should`nt force myself to say the words i hate to. i really blame myself. perhaps it`s a fact that his love for me does`nt exist anymore, that`s why when i asked for a reconcilation he denied me. i`m a silly girl i know. my heart is too soft that`s why i always hurt myself. an opportunity meant so much to him then, so is to me. but i was`nt privileged to receive one. it`s fated i think, so i don`t wanna dwell too deep into this again. if he really loves me, he will find me back, no matter how far the distance is. i dread seeing him now no matter how much i wanted to take even a look at him, to see how`s he doing. he won`t even say hi i supposed. i don`t even dare to ask angela about him nowadays. perhaps i should move to somewhere really very far away, a neverland... why am i feeling so teribble again??? nevertheless, i tried to fight to gain back my hapiness so at least i won`t regret anymore. reminiscing about it, it`s kinda funny actually, asking him to makeover but in the end i still love him even he does`nt maintain that appearance anymore. haha.. the 1st time see him styling his hair looks kinda weird `cos no guys had ever did that for me. hmmm... really wondering is his life better off without me??? he said i gave him too much pressure to handle. did i really??? oh man, i`m really a meanie am i?? that day delrick called me. we just chatted casually until he asked if i blamed him last time? come to think of it, i did`nt really blamed him `cos i know he had a hard time bearing with my stupid bad temper. but this time i don`t know whether i should blame myself or what `cos i did change my bad temper. hais, whatever bahs. i hope one day he will talk to me again. listening to the first song i sent him before we ended up together. does he still remember the song???
let me ask a neutral party, mr or ms anonymous, what do you think i should do??? just pretend that i don`t know him or just be normal when i see him or how should i react??? do you think this jx will still want me as a friend even if he does`nt want a reconcilation anymore???
terry, you are a man lehs, don`t expect too much from a little girl like me hor! lols!!!
12:46 PM
saw mr or ms anonymous`s tag and got reminded jx again. who is jx??? i tried to delete the name in my memory but looks like it`s a mission impossible. i went to re-read his past blogging entries. he said he wanted to take care of me forever and that "dear will always be my dear, girl will always be my girl". why does`nt this stand anymore?? i admit i`m too rash. i should`nt return IT to him. i should`nt force myself to say the words i hate to. i really blame myself. perhaps it`s a fact that his love for me does`nt exist anymore, that`s why when i asked for a reconcilation he denied me. i`m a silly girl i know. my heart is too soft that`s why i always hurt myself. an opportunity meant so much to him then, so is to me. but i was`nt privileged to receive one. it`s fated i think, so i don`t wanna dwell too deep into this again. if he really loves me, he will find me back, no matter how far the distance is. i dread seeing him now no matter how much i wanted to take even a look at him, to see how`s he doing. he won`t even say hi i supposed. i don`t even dare to ask angela about him nowadays. perhaps i should move to somewhere really very far away, a neverland... why am i feeling so teribble again??? nevertheless, i tried to fight to gain back my hapiness so at least i won`t regret anymore. reminiscing about it, it`s kinda funny actually, asking him to makeover but in the end i still love him even he does`nt maintain that appearance anymore. haha.. the 1st time see him styling his hair looks kinda weird `cos no guys had ever did that for me. hmmm... really wondering is his life better off without me??? he said i gave him too much pressure to handle. did i really??? oh man, i`m really a meanie am i?? that day delrick called me. we just chatted casually until he asked if i blamed him last time? come to think of it, i did`nt really blamed him `cos i know he had a hard time bearing with my stupid bad temper. but this time i don`t know whether i should blame myself or what `cos i did change my bad temper. hais, whatever bahs. i hope one day he will talk to me again. listening to the first song i sent him before we ended up together. does he still remember the song???
let me ask a neutral party, mr or ms anonymous, what do you think i should do??? just pretend that i don`t know him or just be normal when i see him or how should i react??? do you think this jx will still want me as a friend even if he does`nt want a reconcilation anymore???
terry, you are a man lehs, don`t expect too much from a little girl like me hor! lols!!!
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 12:46 PM
